With Intention.

You know what I love about myself? That I am probably one of the most passionate people you’ll ever meet. I love that! I have this desire within myself to always get other people as excited about things in life as I do, and while that may sometimes come off as being a little bossy, my intention is always to get you as motivated about living life and advocating for others as I am.  

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I celebrated my 28th birthday in February, and for whatever reason this birthday felt different— but a good kind of different. This year I had no expectations for how my birthday should be—and it’s not like I generally expect an over abundance of birthday love, but typically I feel like my birthday is THE day. Every year, I live that day imagining that perfect strangers are smiling at me because the whole world secretly knows it’s my birthday. And it’s like everyone is super nice to me and friendly because they somehow got the memo that it’s MY day. Colors are brighter, birds are singing louder, flowers are blooming, you get the idea… But this year, it really did seem like any other day. And the days leading up to it and the days lingering after it, I had the sweetest inner peace within me. On my birthday, Eric and I were sharing some birthday beers and I asked him if he ever felt the feeling I was experiencing. He knew exactly what I was talking about and shared that for him, it feels like when you lead your life with intention you will experience a more regular feeling of peace than when you live life without it. He said it perfectly. That’s exactly what I was feeling and exactly how it felt.

So, it’s now April and I am always striving to live my life with intention in almost every decision I make. I mean, I’m even applying this to food you guys—and it’s awesome! Bare with me for a second and imagine the feeling of eating an orange. When you intentionally decide to eat an orange, you think about all the steps it takes to eat one (which may be why I’ve decided to just grab the nearest candy bar in previous snack making decisions). First, you peel away the orange peel, which typically ends with you having orange peel underneath your fingernails for the rest of the day. Then, as you peel each piece off bit by bit, you smell the clean citrusy smell of the orange. Once the orange is peeled, there are always those little stringy pieces from the peel attached to the orange that you encounter as you pull the orange pieces apart. And finally you’re ready to start eating those orange pieces. Now think for a minute about the amazingness that this fruit grew as individual orange pieces for you inside of a peel—all on its own! Amazing, right? And by intentionally choosing to eat an orange and think about that piece of fruit as you indulge in its deliciousness, you are appreciating the creation of something, which…wait for it…gives you a feeling of inner peace. You may think this is all some “hippie” bullhonkey, but I challenge you to think about your food with intention the next time you eat something. It’s a strange and great feeling all at the same time.

Leading life with intention isn’t easy, I am constantly reminding myself to reel in the passion I talked about earlier and think before I do things.  But let me tell you, it has made my life feel slower and more meaningful. My relationships and love have felt so real and so good. I value my time with Eric, friends, family, my Sammy pup, my job, and those moments when it’s just me so much more that at times I feel euphoric. And in situations where things aren’t going the way I wish they were, I’m able to just roll with the punches a bit more and be present in the moment, even if I’m not wanting to be there. Being present instead of being annoyed is a much better feeling—let me tell ya!

So here are the ingredients to the Kool-Aid I’ve been drinking lately: passion, love, peace, and intention. I’ve gotta say that so far, it’s tasting pretty sweet to me. 

That’s my two cents <3

All images taken with my iPhone.

Eric took this photo of me last New Year&#8217;s Eve with our mini polaroid camera. We attempted this photo twice and both times it turned out blurry, and then I decided I kinda liked it better that way. And as corny as it is, this blurry photo was such a symbol for the transition I&#8217;ve made in 2013. 
The most valuable lesson I&#8217;ve learned this year is the need to act on what is morally right, especially in the case of advocating for those who need it most. I&#8217;m vowing to continue applying this knowledge to my personal growth of 2014.   
Happy New Year, friends. Peace and Love. 

Eric took this photo of me last New Year’s Eve with our mini polaroid camera. We attempted this photo twice and both times it turned out blurry, and then I decided I kinda liked it better that way. And as corny as it is, this blurry photo was such a symbol for the transition I’ve made in 2013. 

The most valuable lesson I’ve learned this year is the need to act on what is morally right, especially in the case of advocating for those who need it most. I’m vowing to continue applying this knowledge to my personal growth of 2014.   

Happy New Year, friends. Peace and Love. 

I am really good at always being busy with my family, friends, community, art, and my job. I love that my personality is to always have my hands on several different projects. For me, being active in a lot of different things helps my creative process and I appreciate that I know that about myself. But sometimes, all of that busyness catches up with me and I look for ways to slow down.

I am certain that a good ol’ fashion snow day would really do the trick, and this time of year always has me hopeful for one! I’m talking about the kind of snow day that schools close for and all the local businesses shut down early. And the kind of snow day that when you walk outside everything sounds muffled and quitter than usual. Snow days are those days that force you to take a breather and enjoy a more simpler life. 

Come on snow, I’m rooting for you to get here!! 

Found Images: 

Snow on Bleeker Street

Christmas Tree Car

A snowy Bob Dylan

Lately, these quotes have me thinking a lot about the beauty in being alive. 
"I finally know the difference between pleasing and loving, obeying and respecting. It has taken me so many years to be okay with being different, and with being alive, this intense." -Eve Ensler
"Today you are you! That is truer than true! There is no one alive who is you-er than you!" -Dr. Seuss
"Nobody knows Kris more than Kris." -My Dad
"I feel it all. I feel it all." -Feist 
"Sometimes it just feels really really good to be alive." -Doug Coupland
"We are what we believe we are." -C.S. Lewis

Lately, these quotes have me thinking a lot about the beauty in being alive. 

"I finally know the difference between pleasing and loving, obeying and respecting. It has taken me so many years to be okay with being different, and with being alive, this intense." 
-Eve Ensler

"Today you are you! That is truer than true! There is no one alive who is you-er than you!" 
-Dr. Seuss

"Nobody knows Kris more than Kris." -My Dad

"I feel it all. I feel it all." -Feist 

"Sometimes it just feels really really good to be alive." -Doug Coupland

"We are what we believe we are." -C.S. Lewis

This Thanksgiving we packed up our car and headed south to Portland for a sweet holiday, just the two of us along with our Sammy pup. We’ve filled our three short days away with midday walks in the sunny fall weather, drinking too much coffee, giggling over goofy conversations during happy hour, and watching cable TV in our cozy Ace Hotel room. 

Sometimes the reality of our world and society being unfair, unjust, and unimaginably cruel to those outside my personal experience, makes it hard for me to personally celebrate the things that I should so easily be thankful for. As I continue to grow in understanding my own opinions and thoughts on the world, I’ve come to realize that having a social moral compass as the driving force of who I become, is something I can really be thankful for. 

Happy Thanksgiving.